This is what I learned about making decisions for your own home: nothing.
My last blog post on my kitchen was a little over two weeks ago and in that time decisions were made but indecision and anxiety have sidled into my life like long lost friends.
I lost sleep the other night over faucets. I bought a sink and some accent tile for the backsplash yesterday and felt nothing but regret about the purchases all night long. If I could never buy anything again for the rest of my life I would be fine with that.
Right out of the gate, I made some easy decisions about the cabinetry. Most of the cabinets will be White Dove from Benjamin Moore with a few accent cabinets in Rustic Walnut. Colors wear me out sometimes and natural wood is soothing to me. Maybe I was a Scandinavian dryad in my former life.
It started going wrong for me with the floor tile. My favorite flooring for kitchens is wood. In our home we have two different species of hardwood floors meeting at various entrances in this kitchen. Combine this with two large, enthusiastic water-drinking dogs, one 6th grader with enthusiastic friends, a hot tub right outside the back door, and all signs point to tile being my best option. For inspiration, I poked around online for kitchens with tile.
I love the look of this floor:
The flooring looks a lot like Belgian Bluestone to me and I was all in until I saw the price tag. My mom gently suggested that it might be better if I just taped $20 bills to the floor rather than buy this tile.
I thought I could replicate this look with slate, which is a great price point, and ordered a few samples of Montauk Blue and Montauk Black slate from Denver’s Floor Club.
Todd, the tile installer, came over to measure and discouraged me from slate because of the heavy use our floor gets. My younger self would have ignored his advice. My grown-up self is more practical. I don’t want to have to re-seal it, I don’t want to see traffic patterns and I don’t love the unevenness even though I am kind of convinced that’s part of the appeal.
Perhaps you are wondering why I wouldn’t put down imitation slate? It’s only because I don’t like the look of imitation slate which is contradictory to many other things that I don’t mind at all (like faux wood and faux marble).
That said, here’s the imitation leather tile I found and fell in love with It’s a 12×24 porcelain tile that will hold up well to our enthusiastic friends and family. Jessica, my salesperson at the Floor Club, pushed (I mean encouraged) me toward this. The manufacturer describes it as “Eclectic yet charming tile.” I wonder about the word “yet“.
I ordered the tile last week and felt small qualms about the choice. “Is it too dark?!” “Will it show everything!?”
“Will anyone care this much about this floor beside me?” No.